Friday, October 27, 2006

Glass eye man

I slept late yesterday. And woke with a nightmare.

Everyday, while turning in, I go through a whole range of mental paroxysms. Mental, not intelectual, not emotional. I lie, my eyes shut, and as I try to sleep, I listen to my voice in my head and try to figure out which of the many figures within this skin has chosen to surface with sleep.

I do not remember who fell asleep when I lay down yesterday. But when I woke, I woke with a nightmare.

The world of dreams is an amorphous world. What you remember afterwards is not the whole story, more like a few leaves from an old book, that you try to order and piece together, try to build a narrative from- grope at certain images and faces, trying to figure out why they appear so familiar.

I do not remember whether I saw one dream or many, one leaking into the other, after I fell asleep yesterday. But when I woke, I woke with one dream.

This much I remember though, a woman in a black shroud, waiting - I think I desperately wanted to meet her. And I remember also, a room with damp walls, musty but large. And I remember someone patiently stalking in the street, on the roof, behind the door, on the pavements, feline, predatorial: tall and lean and pale, with green glass eyes.

I wonder who woke up in the morning? Him or I?

1 comment:

Vidushi said...

really like the stuff you write but do not become predictable. your predominant tone is either melancholic or cynical. see if can break out of these. but in terms of form it is going well.
tara