before the rains, 16

no one wants to break a man’s heart, especially when he’s heartbroken. and i was young - i liked the idea of seeing her. a woman who can do this to a man has got to be something.
so i say, sure thing, whatever you say.

he lights up his cigarette and i light up mine and we lie down on the wet grass. i never did lie down like that ever again.

now i look back and realise, you don’t need to be in love to feel that. you just need someone else to be in love; you need a lazy evening and you need a sense of humour. and, if the time is right, rain.

i looked for it many times after,

but i never did lie down like that ever again.